Duhh. im bored

Yea, thanks to farah la kan cz tagged saya =p

TAG 1

7 ciri lelaki idaman saya
• Tall
• When he smiles, his whole face brightens up and will instantaneously make you happy
• Smells nice
• Pretective
• Spontaneous
• Caring
• Smart and non-smoker, please?


7 lelaki yang pernah saya minati [cinta?]
• Well, my 1st crush is when i was in kindergarten. His name is Iqram. Comell. Haha i fell in love with him mse kotrg menari tarian tradisional. Yepp, ktorg main dancer. Cewahh.
• A prefect when i was in standard3. Heh. He is a brother of my friend. Every morning we would walk together to school. Along with my friend laa. Tkde la berdua je. Hahah.
• Nicky Byrne from Westlife. Sumpah. Comell. And im still a crazy fan of his.
• A chinese boy mse form2, kot. Seriously. Jatuh cinta gila! And sometimes rse mcm syok sendiri. Wawawa =p
• Mamat Forever21 kt Pavilion. Hahaha. Masa tu klaka gila kott.
• Chad Michael Murray. Yep yep!
• Kim Heechul, Lee Donghae, Kim Kibum & Choi Shiwon.
• Currently in looove with Lee Minho, KimBum & Kim Hyun Joong =p


7 perasaan sekiranya keluar dengan orang yang diminati [cinta?]
• My heart pounds up very fast.
• Nervous sampai kadang2 terspeechless.
• Got butterflies in my tummy, for sure.
• Happy. Not just happy. Bahagia.
• I felt like I was in my own world.
• Kalau sakit terus rasa mcm sihat.
• Menggigil, sometimes =p


7 tempat istimewa yang ingin dilawati bersama orang yang tersayang
• Paris!
• The most beautiful Island in the world.
• Korea. yeayyy!
• China's Great Wall.
• Holland in spring.
• Tepi tasik bawah pokok and tengok stars all night.
• Mana2 pun tak kisah janji tak busuk.


7 barangan/sesuatu istimewa yang mungkin dihadiahkan buat orang tersayang
• Errr. Surprise ahh! Mana boleh bgtwu. Hahaha =p


7 Lagu yang anda nyanyikan untuk orang tersayang
• Mariah Carey - My All [tp susah kot lagu tu =p]
• Super Junior - Endless Moment
• Sixpence None Richer - Kiss Me
• N'Sync - This I Promise You
• Edwin McCain - I'll Be
• Daniel Bedingfield - If You're Not The One.
• Westlife - More Than Words


TAG 2
1. Take a recent CUTE photo of yourself.
2. Don't change anything, edit or whatever.
3. Post that photo.
4. Post this instructions with the photo.
5. Tag 10 people to do this.

I tag Syikin & Amalina

Crazy.

goshh. im in love again, with Super Junior. a top singing group from Korea. damn.
i watch their new mv, "sorry sorry" for about 30times, i guess?
or more, perhaps.
ive been crazy watching over it.
urghhh!




but im kind of frust with heechul's new hair.
it was too short.
and his face looked, weird :(
but i still have donghae.
hehe :D
and oh, currently in love with kyuhyun & yesung.
suara dorg best gilaa.
aaaaaaaaaa!

damn. i really hate sungmin.
he's trying so hard to look cute on every single performance.
and he act like he is so cool.
hell no. gedikk.
sorry!




i miss kibum.
he is nowhere to be found.
not on super junior's comeback.
he's not even there.
why?
he's been busy with shooting, etc etc.
dia selalu je tkde.
ish geram geram :(

A brand new life.

13th march 09.

ive promised myself that i'll study harder and harder after this.
after i got such an awful result yesterday.
yepp,
i felt like im an idiot.
wayy too idiot.
and im just a burdensome to my parents.
i didnt make them proud.
instead of proud, they cried.
tears of... not happiness.
but tears of frustrated.

i cried too.
and i was down yesterday.
i cried 4 d whole day.
the worst day ive been through in my whole lifetime.
and ive promised myself that this will be the last.
ive been thinking of committing suicide yesterday.
i just thought of there will be an accident.
and im one of the victim.
and died on the spot.
but hell no.

faiz had awekened me up.
i started to think of Allah.
*mengucap.
i went to bathroom,
to freshened up my body.
and i felt calm in there.
i started to think about everything.

then i perform the solah.
i prayed to Allah,
to soften mama & ayah's heart.
may they accept what is fated.
and to give me another chance,
to prove them that im not that stupid.
there's still a chance.
yes, there is.

credits to farah, mira, faiz, harithah, qusya, puja, and my other friends as well.
they support me up.
they said, if we failed once, doesnt means we'll fail forever.
thanks to them.
i dont know what would my life be without having them around.
i appreciate it :)

oh yes,
about my result,
alhamdulillah pass semua.
cuma addmaths je la, dpt E.
teruk, kan?
well,
u can say whatever u want.
but its not going to affect my spirit.
there's still a hope.
and im always pray for it.

thank Allah ayah was okay.
he wasnt mad of me.
its just, mama is the problem right now.
but nevermind..
i understand what she feels.
and it takes time for her to back to normal.
keep praying, fajin.
dont give up too fast.

ayah suggest me to join army.
he said, think of ur future.
think of economy..
about will happen 4 ten years ahead.
walau ekonomi jatuh sekalipun,
benda yg takkan effect,
pendidikan, pertahanan, and there's another one.
cant remember what is it.

so,
i had make up my mind.
i'll apply 4 any courses.
especially 4 language, army & teacher.

thanks to farah especially.
i remembered a thing she said last night.
i texted her, "i lost in this battle"
and she replied, "byk lg battles to come. this isnt the end"
credits to her then! =)


well,
now im not the same old fajin anymore.
i have changed.
its a brand new me.
with a new spirit, new strength, new life, high hopes, and bright future.
insyaallah.
keep praying 4 me.
fighting! :)

SPM.

11th march 09.

SPM...

hm the results will reveal tomorrow.

i had butterflies in my tummy right now.

i keep praying 4 my best result.

but i cant sit still.

i kept going here & there,

wondering what will i get 4 my result tomorrow.

will it be any subject that is fail?

i started thinking of addmaths & LK.

god. i flunked those paper.

i am much worried.

im wondering how many a's i'll get, too.

everyone kept asking me the same question, "berapa A target?"

i said, "i dont know. tkde target. and tak berani nak target. phobia"

the same question & answer.

thats it.

goshh.

im really hoping 4 a miracle to happen tomorrow.

when i pray just now,

i promised to myself that i'll study harder when i got into university o matrix.

yupp, i want to be a successful woman.

and i want to make my parents proud.

i want to prove them that i can do it.

i'll pray 4 my friends too.

my classmates especially.

i really miss them.

i miss the teachers.

i hope i can meet all of them tomorrow.

god. i really want to scream out loud right now.

tension tahap dewa bulan.

i am still missing him somehow.

damn. i really do.

arghhhhh!

its torturing me.

guys,

wish my luck.

and pray 4 me.

hopefully i'll get the best result.

insyaallah. aamin :)

Urgghhhh!

5th march 09.

im about to transfer all of the picture frm the camera to laptop.
but guess what?
the camera battery is weak.
cm tahi, kan?
alaaa malas gila nk charge.
goshhh!

nway,
sorry to nazli.
cz he's the one who wants all of the picture.
ahaha excited eh nk tgk?
well yea,
its frm the outing.
we went out to sunway pyramid yesterday.
along with mira & pika.
and we had a blast, of course!
miahahah =p

tu la,
td igt nk letak pix skali.
but battery pulak weak.
urghhh!

esok ah cte.
alright, till then~

Urmm...

3rd march 09.

we went to watch a movie last night.
mira & durrani [mira's lil' bro] also joined us.
before we went to the cinema which is at 2nd floor,
mama & ayah said they want to solat isyak first.
it was 9pm that time.
and i said, i want to went upstairs 1st to buy snacks/popcorn.
takot tak sempat je nnt.
cz movie ktorg start at 9.20.

so i went there 1st with mira, durrani & jihan.
after we bought all the things we need,
we sat on a bench, waiting 4 my mum & dad.
here's some pics from us :)










in the cinema,
i sat beside shamin.
while mira, durrani & jihan at my back.
mama & ayah at the front.

the guy who sat beside mira was so,
pfffffttttt! ANNOYING!
why?
cz he imitated the upin & ipin voice.
not only for a second or on a certain scene,
but he's doing it all of the time!
poor mira.
he's so loud til i could hear his voice.
i thought it was a kid.
but suddenly mira said its a big guy,
dah dewasa dah pun.
hello mister. tak reti nk hormat org lain ke?
mira said she couldnt understand wht the story is all about.
just because of that annoying guy.
urghhh gila!

A little things.

well,
i didnt wrote much in this month.
but there's a lot of important thing happened, as usual.

earlier this month,
we went 4 a visit at pak usu's new house.
pak usu is mama's youngest brother.
so, i met d ribena girls.
umm it is pak usu's daughters.
oh they're sOooo cute!
the 1st one is auni [4years], 2nd mia [3years] & d last one is zara [ 1years]
but i was tired.
layan dorg penat, okay.
but still, i had a lot of fun with them.
hahaha rindu!

then, on 16th february,
i had a driving test by jpj.
i passed. alhamdulillah =)
but i thought i was failed.
cz d tester [jpj], urghhh annoying!
always told me to drive even faster.
im confused.
cz my driving instructor said d limit of speed at jln kampung must b less than 30km/h.
so i followed exactly as wht he said.
but the tester always like, "hah, tkde kereta tu. dah jln cepat. cepattt".
and "laju lagi.. cepat jalan"
god. he's a psycho.
urghhh sabar je.
and worse, i didnt do the U-turn.
he said, "aft roundabout tu terus patah balik litar. xyah buat U-turn"
huh confirm fail, i thought.

then, aft habis tu,
kena sign.
i saw d marks.
it was 8. yup, 8 out of 20.
pretty shocked, huh?
i started to feel like crying.
i showed d result paper to my driving instructor.
and he really thought that i was failed.
but, he showed me at the lulus & gagal box.
there's a tick in the lulus box.
im getting weird.
then he said, "awk dpt 18 laa. hehe lulus"
i was like, god! really?
hahaha yea,
tak npk num1 tu cz kena kt garisan.
hahahaha i was sooo happy then!
thank Allah (:

another thing,
intan gave me elmo.
she gave it to me inside her car, when im about to leave [in front of my house]
i know it was too expensive.
im shocked when she said, "fajin, amek neh"
i was like, huh? apa neh?
i peek into the plastic bag, and there's a elmo in it.
ohh. that was so nice of her.
and im touched. yes, i really does.
i thanked her.
she's so kind.
im glad to have such a nice person like her.

last weekend,
uncle fared a.k.a mira's dad,
asked my family to went out with his family.
to where? play bowling, of course.
so we played the game.
but my mum didnt joined us.
she had a cramp legs.
poor her.

so, ayah wins the game.
uncle fared 2nd, im 3rd, shamin 4th, aunty normah 5th.
and d last place goes to my bestie, mira!
hahaha she's being so mad.
being lose to my younger sister is not an acceptable 4 her, i guess.
pity pity her.
hehe she want to have another game.
but sorry mira.
its already 11pm.
and everyone seems to b tired.
its okay, next time then!

then we went to makan2 at a restaurant nearby.
while at d dining table,
mira said she want to played again.
then her dad said, "next time laa. kte pegi with d boys skali"
d boys that i meant was, her elder brothers.
n mine, too.
uncle fared said it'll be more fun.
urm i think so. hahaha

i think this is enough.
cant really remember d other things that happened.
hm till then! =)

Disaster.

27th february 09.

okay. here's the things went.
i drove the car yesterday evening.
my dad's car.
we [shamin, jihan & me] went to 7-eleven.
when i was about entering the main road,
i felt like i hit something.
cz shamin said "kak fajin! sakit lah"
yea, i feel it too.
jihan's at the back. she said, "kak fajin dah nk langgar india yg naik motor tu"
OMG. i did?
then shamin add, "kak fajin langgar lubang td. lubang besar"
god. i swear. i didnt notice it.
it was on my left side. i couldnt see anything.

when we reached home,
jihan hastily opened the door, to check outside the car.
then she said "kak fajin! habislaaa"
and shamin add "gila ahh"
oh god. i knew something terrible had happened.
so i went out.
and OH. MY. GOD.
theres a big, big & long scratch under the car's door.
and worst, kemek.
god. im scared to death.
im afraid that ayah will scold me if he know abt this.
im so dead. worse than dead.

so i said to them, "diam. jangan bgtwu mama & ayah. buat2 xtwu je"
then they said, "klw ayah perasan cmne?"
i replied, "ala buat bdo je aa. klw ayah tnya ckp je xtwu. tiba2 jd cmtu"
well, im not good at lying though.
but i have to. desperate moment.
tipu sunat.
im sorry ma, ayah =(

at night,
i told him about it.
and he said, better bgtwu.
sooner or later they'll find out.
and obviously they'll blame me.
since i was driving the car all the way yesterday.
but i said to him, i couldnt. i just cant.
telling them the truth? its a no-no.
its hard 4 me to do it.
i dont want to get scolded.
so i think the best way is to pretend like nothing had happened

A day out!

28th january 09.
The girls ; [mira, intan, amalina & me]
Place to go ; Aeon bukit tinggi.

mira ring me up.
she asked me, "kaw nk beli num unipax tu tak?"
then i said, "nak ah. bila nk pegi?"
she said, "skrg ah"

so i texted intan.
asked her whether she's free or not.
i want to ask her out too.
needly to see her.
been missed her so much!
besides, she can drive us to anywhere we want, since she already had the P license.
she said she'll bring amalina along with her.
then i said okay.
it was supposed to be five of us.
but puja said she cant go, at the end.

so,
mira's eldest brother send us there.
his dad asked him to do so.
when we arrived,
we started to look over the unipax number.
but it not have been sold anymore.
that clecom guy said, "skg tga tkde stock"
then i just, "hm okay. thanks"
*frust frust =(

while waiting for intan & amalina,
we walked aorund the mall.
i just realized that there were a lot of people there.
not as usual i thought.
as i walked here & there,
there were some of people that i known bumped with us.
quite shocked,
but i just simply said hi, apa cte skg, etc etc.
then blah. lol =p

we went to popular,
mira was searching for novel, of course.
i looked over, and saw harry potter the deathly hallows novel of malay version.
i texted intan, "weh! buku yg kaw nk tu ada lah. dtg cpt, nnt hbes"
there were still, plenty of 'em actually.
but i just want to make her feel excited :)

then mira said she wanted to eat.
so we went to arena,
and decided to eat chicken steak, by sharing with each other.
mira went to ordered, while me, waiting on the chair.
p/s : jaga tempat duduk, okay.

about 10mins later, mira arrived with the food.
lama gila kot.
then i saw the steak, omg!
sikit gilaaaaa



tengok ah, fries pn cket. ee nk bunuh je org tu! grrr!

after finished eating, we talked.
but then i saw a chinese man passed us by,
while carrying ABC.
i was like, uhh yummy!
then i asked mira, "weh sedapnya ABC. kaw nak tak?"
she said, "hm boleh jugak"
so i quickly went to ordered the ABC.
*nyum nyum

then, intan & amalina arrived.
ah, finally.
they said, "kt sini korg rupanya. melantak je kje"
we just laughed.

after that,
we went back to popular,
cz intan wanted to buy that harry potter book.
i saw harry potter complete set of 7 novels.
i wanted to buy it long long before..
the price? rm285
aaaa moneyyyy! tga kering gila kot. huh



i went to cooking books section,
but amalina asked me to stand beside her.
mira took our picture. grr



then,
amalina said she wanted to eat nasi ayam lemon at Pak Li's kopitiam.
it was outside and away from the Aeon.
so we went off to the place.




oh oh,
mira bought a new watch :)




as we arrived at the kopitiam,
i ordered ice cendol. mkn lg.
ngeh ngeh ngeh =p

mira & amalina poured the sugar syrup.
they said, "tak cukup manis neh, tambah lg"
i said, "dh cukup ah. manis nnt korg mkn yeh"
intan?
she just watched us :)







see? she was doing that face, again.
urghhh ;)

as we waited for mira's fries to arrived,
i look over at the waiters.
wanted to ask them where's the fries.
but then i realized this one guy,
one of the waiters.
he was staring at me sharply.
i didnt notice it at first,
aft i realized it, he smiled at me.
i wonder if he really smiled at me or not.
but yepp, he was really smiled at me.
i just turn over my head.
pretend like nothing happened.

when we're about to leave,
that guy stared at me, again.
he kept smiling with me.
okay, that was scary.
i hastily went out and searched 4 intan's car.
*sighs




intan was seriously driving the car =p
but they're pretty naughty.
when i was talking with mira,
they increased the radio volume.
it was sOo loud.
then i shouted, "woooooooooooiiiiiii!!!"
they just laughed.
cehh! :)

intan send mira first,
then me.
when i was got off from the car,
intan gave me a box of chocolate.
it was vochelle almonds.
my favourite!
ahh she was just soooo sweet!

thanks intan.
thanks for every little thing u had done.
i really enjoyed this day.
a day which i'll never forget :')

The aqiqah kenduri.

25th january 09.

uncle's house [ayh de] , kapar, klang.

so, all of us went to the house, to attend the kenduri.
it is abg kerul's 1st child, Rania Zara.
as we arrived, aft bersalam-salaman, we take a look at the baby.
she was so cute. and small, definitely.




cute, isnt it?

then we entered the kitchen.
we saw tok and kak na was doing the 'bunga rampai' thingy.
so we lend a help =)
since the food was prepared by the caterer,
we dont have much thing to do.
just waiting 4 d caterer to arrive.
so we watched the tv, played with the baby, etc etc.

after waiting for a few hours,
the caterer finally arrived.
with the food, of course.
ahh i loooove food!
i helped the men to arrange the food on the table.

finished doing the thing,
ayah de asked us to eat.
i was like, 'malu malu'.
but goshh! im starving.
yea, i didnt ate anythg since morning.
so i took the plate, and started to cedok the nasi and lauk.
the menu?
hmm there were plenty of 'em.
nasi briyani, ayam masak merah, daging masak kicap, rendang kambing, kuah dal & sup kambing.
ahh the food was sOOo delicious!
*hungry hungry

then, i went to kitchen, to washed the dish.
aft that, im searching 4 my eldest sister, farah.
i asked fiqah, "kak farah mana?"
then she said, "ada kt dlm blik fiqah"
so i entered the room,
and guess what?
i saw her, lying on bed, sleeping.
oh how could her?
but but but, i joined her too!
*lol =p

we slept until 4pm, i guess.
tu pun cz kak zaza came up.
she opened the door, and shouted, "ya allah, apa nk jd dgn anak dara neh?"
i was shocked, and quickly wake up.
i weared the tudung, and came out from the room.
i saw some people were still, eating.
it was kak shida's & abg kerul's friends.
but the majlis was already over.
aihh missed it! =(

i went to the kitchen, and saw mama, kak tasya, tok, lutfi & dayah eating.




and i joined them.
yuhuu!
but im not eating.
just watched them enjoyed the food.
but then mama said, "taknak mkn sup ke? sedap"
then i said, "hehe nk cket. mama suapkn"

a few minutes later, farah came up.
and we took a picture.




i was dark. and fat. urghh!
then i saw the leftover fruits.




yummy yummy! ;)

i ate till i didnt realize that fiqah was snapping my picture.
take a look at it.




buruk buruk. but still, thanks to fiqah! =)
and, the last picture of me...




then i went to the living room,
and saw all of the men were sleeping.
it was funny to watch them sleep together at the same time. lol =p




after perform the maghrib solah,
we got ready to leave the house.
before i left,
lutfi told me one thing.
he said, "ingat fajin, if nk apply for tesl, apply under kpm or mara"
and i said, "oh okay. thanks anyway"
we talked about it when i was eating at the kitchen.
i asked for his opinion about the courses which i had chose.
and he said, "language pn okay jugak. kwn lutfi pn ada yg apply. and dia nk further studies kt UK"

okay.
now i had the confidence.
but it was all depends on my result.
aihh hopefully i'll get an excellent one.
i was hoping for a miracle to happen.
pray for me =)