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Aaaaaa!
rindu blog mcm tahi!!
asyik tak sempat je nk update.
tell u what, soooo many things i want to share with u.
but ahh, its just, too many.
otak pun dh jd beban.
tp taktau where to start.
ala xyah cte la. malas la pula tbe2. hehe :D

oh oh, now Samantha in charge at the bistro.
Fadzillah go back to JB.
but she'll be back on next week [tuesday]. so, yuhuuuu!
happy gila wehh. Samantha scary kott.
tp dia ok actually. cuma byk mulut cket.
haha guess what? dorg sume call Samantha "big mother"
siot je. tak baik tol. haha

seriously penat. and tak tahan.
nak je resign. dah 3weeks in a row tak dpt off day.
whoaaaa come on! i need a break.
told Samantha already about the resignation.
its a 30days notice.
but she said if i wanted to give the resignation letter now, can, but my last day working will be on end of june.
oh god. im dying.
cz she said, lack of staff.
the new staff, a.k.a Luo Wei, is still very slow.
so mcm paper work tu sume dia xle buat.
wallawehh. maati.

oh oh, i am currently hate Raby.
not just only me, but Fadzillah also.
she said that Raby is too bossy. mengalahkan manager.
mcm dia je boss kt situ.
and yes, mmg btl pun.
ee seriously menyampah ngn dia. sgt la annoying.
urghhh!

well, so far everything goes very well.
not very well la, so-so.
i still love this job. but sometimes i need a break.
haritu j-card day worked for 12hours.
haih just imagine. customer dtg mcm air banjir.
non-stop. smpai kena queue.
tp ok la, at least ada benda nk buat.
if tkde customer boring tol. sangap je. huhuh

ok la, dah lewat neh.
will talk again later. taaa!

Big deal.

i hate this 1gal.

called her MC. she'a a chinese.

why i hate her? simple.

just now i forgot to bring my apron.

then she told Poh Sim about it.

diam2 je dah aa. kuat mengadu tol.

urghhh!

i got scolded. bukan scold la actually.

tegur and nasihat.

ala, dh tertinggal. nak buat mcm mana?

tp semalam pula tertinggal cap.

gila malang betul nasib.

kenapa kau, fajin? dah nyanyuk ke? aigoo~

Raby take a break for 1hour. he went back to his hostel, and sleep.

after he came back, he told me that just now when he sleep, he had a dream about me.

i was like, "u're lying eh?"

then he said, "no, its true. its u in my dream"

muka dia mcm serious gila kot.

at first i thought he was joking.

but bila dia ckp mcm tu, okayy dah pelik.

so i went to another place.

larikan diri drpd dia.

dlm hati mcm, "ee asal dia mimpi aku pulak?"

tak suka betul.

then, got this 1chinese family. the man asked for chilli sauce. and i took it for him. suddenly he said, "u're a chinese or malay?" i replied, "me? im a malay lah. why?" then he said, "malay aa? why u didnt speak malay?" i was like, whats wrong with that? but i just smiled. then he said, "kenapa? sudah takmau jd melayu lg aa?" haha gila betul. its not like that. dh byk kali mcm tu. ada certain customer siap speaking chinese lg. apa dorg ingat aku neh chinese apa ke? urghh.

later that evening, Fadzillah gone. she'll be at JB for 3days. tomorrow i'll had the opening lessons with Poh Sim. aihh. things are getting harder :( oh oh, when im taking a break yesterday, Fadzillah said to me that the kitchen chef had a crush on me. cz he always look at me, and smile widely. i dont know anything about it. she's kidding, i guess. hahah yea! tp mcm notice juga, kdg2 tu he stare at me. ishh tah la. scaryy. pagi tadi mse mula2 dtg, he smiled and said, "morningg ;)" lol funny!

my work schedule for this week is changed.

Monday : 12pm ~ 8.30pm

Tuesday to Thursday : 9.30am ~ 6pm

Friday : Not on duty

Weekends : 10.30am ~ 7pm

will work for 8hours++ from now onwards.

hah! BIG DEAL. penat mcm tahi.

What a hectic day!

saturday. mmg sgt busy.
td table pun full. and ktorg mcm tak cukup tgn.
but thank god there's another 2staff joined us.
so takde lah mcm berat sgt.
haihh.

nothing much happened today.
the big boss is still didnt come.
but her son, yes. just now he came in, and eat.
ada lah tu dia nk complain.
hm got this white man & woman. oh its a couple.
when i passed by, the white man called me.
he said that he wanted the earl grey tea.
and then he said something, but it wasnt clear.
so asked him, "excuse me?"
and he repeated. but still, i didnt understand.
pekat betul english accent dia. haih.
but Tekman cover. oh thank god.

got back home.
supposed to meet him after work, but tak jadi.
he got another thing to do :(
just now, had a barbecue with the neighbors.
alhamdulillah, kenyang sgt.
me & mira, we talked a lot with abg fauzi.
he got a sense of humor.
ahah sooo funny! we talked about korean drama for sure [boys over flower].
he said that he already watched it til the end.
ohh mana bolehh! tak aci laah.
haha and another thing is, he always said one of the character's name, jihun instead of jihu.
lols =p selalu ketawa pasal tu ;)

after finished, went inside the house.
and oh, farah just arrived home from KLIA.
she just got back from Australia.
and she brought loads of things.
most important thing is, chocolates! haha yeayyy! ;)
she bought me a purse! its roxy. white in colour. aihh love it!
but i want the shirt too. but farah said, pilih nak yg mana. satu je.
then she said better if i take the purse. cz its more expensive compare to the shirt.
purse, $50. shirt, $5.
hahah. see the difference? so i chose the purse.
=)

How lucky I am..

okay. today was soo busy.
got so many customers.
til i have to run a little bit. oh god.
no more walking, standing and relaxing.
semua macam kelam kabut. aaaaa pening!

Fadzillah, a.k.a bistro manager, told me that the big boss is coming later today.
oh oh. yesterday her son's already came.
and guess what? he's handsome! and wow, gorgeous! tinggi pula tu.
*im melted. bwahahah ;)
at first, i thought the big boss is a man.
but nope, its a woman.
i asked Fadzillah, how does her face looks like?
and she said, "laa, gambar dia kan ada kt almari yg ada work schedule tu"
so i quickly opened the almari, and whoaa! scaryyy.
lols =p. jahat je. kan?
my first impression is, she looks like a witch.
macam mak Junpyo.
hahah just kidding. tak baik je ckp macam tu.
i mean she's beautiful, tp muka macam garang sikit la. ngee =D

at 5pm, when i was about to leave, my parents came.
its a big shock, u know.
haha they asked me to eat along with them.
but Fadzillah said, "fajin g amik staff meal then makan kt table number3. tak boleh makan dgn parents, kejap lg boss sampai"
so i told my parents about it. and they said, "hmm tkpe lah"
good for me! balik before boss datang. yeayy!
tkde lah nk mengadap muka dia.
wahahah. how lucky am I. right? =)

after finished eating, we went to Pizza Hut.
Haikal mengidam pizza. gedik tol. we ordered the pizza [takeaway], then we left.
wanted to buy some other stuff.
and mum asked me to buy a compact powder.
so i bought myself the johnson & johnson pure mild compact powder.
its good for young's skin, i guess.
i said to mum, "ma, loreal?"
then mum said, "tak sesuai lah. awak kulit muda"
err okayy.

after buying things, we seperate.
cz i drove another car.
tu lah, i said to mum, "npe tak ckp awal2 nak dtg? kalau tawu td xyah drive g kerja. g naik bus. then balik sama2"
mum said, "hm tu la. mama pun lupa nk ckp dgn awk. dah tkpe lah. awk drive. elok2 bwk kete tu"
heh. macam la sy baru sehari dapat lesen. hahah =p

oh when i got back home,
mum said, "fajin, td mse mama lalu dpn Lavender nk amik pizza, tmpt keje awk tu blackout"
and i was like huh?? haha kenapa la i dh tkde time tu. kalau tak boleh rasa mcm mana kerja kt tmpt gelap.
ngahahah ;)

Exhausted.

My first day as a Lavender staff.

I worked at 12noon til 8.30pm.
well, kinda exhausted, definitely.
had to stand up. cannot sit at all. uhh!
but but, had a break for 30mins. only
tak boleh lambat. nnt dpt 1st warning letter, and tolak gaji.
oh god.
but they provide a staff meal.
got 6rm off. so i can pick any bread that i wanted. *nyum nyum ;)
and and, ice lemon tea, free.
guess how much its cost? 4.90rm. its just a drink anyway. hush

so, ive been in charge on bistro.
bistro and cake shop is a different section.
so i cant be at cake shop. my part is only at the bistro.
eventhough its under the same roof . lols
got 2manager there.
Poh Sim [cake shop] and Fadzillah [bistro]
all the staff there were so friendly.
Raby is the person who taught me. first thing, he teach me the basic one.
table number. got 26table overall. and i have to remember the table position.
kadang2 tu confuse juga. meja2 tu bukannya ikut turutan. tah macam mana tah. susah nak explain. haih
and then he showed me where the cutleries is stored, and what the uses of small fork and byk lagi lah. basic things.

my job right now is, to serve customer.
and the person who worked with me is Raby, Tekman and Ho Yong Ling.
Raby & Tekman, both of them are from Nepal.
dua2 handsome. tp Tekman mcm sweet sgt.
masa mula2 tu dia mcm malu2. hehe comell
*had a crush on him. lols =p
and and, got this one person [kitchen chef] always smiles at me.
haha baik juga dorg.
Ho pula, sebaya. he got 7a's for SPM. but tak apply mana2 IPTA.
i asked him, "whyyy?"
he said, "i dont know. i thought it was expire already [the due date]. so dah terlambat, kan?"
i said, "haha yea. but then u nk masuk apa lepas neh?"
he said that he'll be joining form6.
haih, sayang, kan?

oh oh. got this one customer [regular customer kot]. he's a malay, middle age.
he asked me, "new staff ke?"
then i said, "haah :)"
suddenly, he called me. i came nearer.
then he said, "screwdriver ada?"
i said, "pardon?"
he replied, "screwdriver". much clearer.
then i was like, "huh? nak buat apa?"
then he laughed. "toothpick la dikk"
i was like, "ohhh. hahaha okay"
well, i dont know where the hell the toothpick is.
nak tanya, masing2 busy serve customer.
so i just pick a container of toothpick, and give it to him.
then dia buat muka macam, salah neh.
then my manager came. and that person told her everything, while laughing, yes.
i mcm dah nervous. apa yg dorg ckp neh?
then my manager said, "fajin, bukan yg ni la. toothpick yg ni utk dapur. utk customer lain"
and they laughed.
i was like, okayy. but blurr gilaa. hahah

when i was doing some work, i noticed mcm ada org pandang2.
i look outside, and i saw Pika & Khalishah is waving at me, and ketawa2.
jahat kan dorg? omg segan gilaa.
so i smiled to them then sambung balik buat kerja. hahah.
and and, guess what?
Faiz, Faisal & Pali also came.
they're laughing at me. *blushed
then they came in. i saw them filled up the form.
maybe they asked for a job. and i was like, omg! aaaaaa!
Faiz called me to come nearer.
but i didnt. i said to him that i cant. uh uh sorry =(

and lots thing happened.
what can i say? its my first experience ;)
best. tapi ya allah. kaki sakit nak mam.
gila pedih. sebab pinjam kasut mira. and then size mcm muat2.
so my thumb nail tu mcm tersepit.
fuhh sakit gilaaa. tahan je la. balik rumah, my thumb nail jd pucat.
and sampai skrg tak baik lagi.

anyway, this is my working schedule.
Monday : 12pm ~ 8.30pm
Tuesday to Thursday : 12pm ~ 5pm
Friday : Not on duty
Weekend : 12pm ~ 5pm

yeayyy! guess what does it means?
i can go to the barbecue!!
hahah. this saturday ktorg [the neighbours] plan nk buat bbq.
so haritu ingat mcm tak boleh pegi. cz kerja.
but after seeing my schedule, i was like, yeayyy!
hehehe :D

Happy?

yes, currently. alhamdulillah.
thanks kepada si dia ;)
taknak cerita lebih. nanti ada orang tu marah.
ngee :D

Still, together =)

things are getting better. alhamdulillah.
on the phone with him, last night.
he asked me to call.
he said that he still want to be with me.
and and, he'll ignore her.
cukup utk buat saya happy :)
he also said that he wanted to sing a song for me. with guitar, yes.
but tak jadi, cz guitar dlm rumah. and he's inside the car.
so i tell him nevermind lah. nyanyi je. tkde guitar pn tkpe. lagi bagus, kot.
then he asked me, "mcm mana nk nyanyi lagu tanpa music?"
i was like, err. tp if nyanyi without music, kte boleh dga suara org tu live, kan? and lebih jelas.
haha then dia kata tkpe. next time je ;)
but things are not like before.
ada sedikit perubahan, actually.
i had to get used to it. well yea, it takes time. aihh

thanks to naly anyway.
for always being there whenever i need u.
*saya pegang janji tu, kay =p
he supposed to talk with me last night,
but mse tu tga on the phone with him.
and he understand.
then i text him. no respond.
tido, kot.
haha pagi td tgk, ada msg from naly.
said that he'd fall asleep last night.
hm dah agak dah. its okay, naly ;)

today is saturday, right?
goshh. one day left. monday dah start kerja.
omg. seriously mcm tak percaya.
RHB account pun belum buat lg. injection pun tak amik lg.
mcm mana neh? haih.
kalau la ayah tak delete account tu dulu, kan senang.
dah ada dah skrg. xyah sibuk nk pk buat account sume.
hm about the injection?
semalam call klinik kesihatan, dia kata ubat utk injection tu tkde stock.
so mum called dr. rosnah, a.k.a our neighbour.
she said, if nk buat boleh. but its 65rm.
haha agak mahal lah, kan?
so i called poh sim [lavender manager] just now.
told her about that thing.
and she said, ohh if cmtu tkpe lah. u dtg je kerja, nnt i bwk u pegi inject kt tmpt yg murah, ok?
ahaha thank god. so nice of her, kan? xyah pening2 nk pk.
one problem is solved. *winks

but but, pimples pula makin naik.
ya allah, geramnyaa.
time neh juga la dia gatal naik kt muka.
sakitnya hati. mcm nak berus je bagi hilang.
urghhh!

Leaving a fracture.

i dont know how am i going to face this whole thing.
i dont have anyone by my side. im lost. totally lost.
my spirit booster, its gone.
i need it back, please.
my eyes are swollen. been cried for most of the time.
oh fajin, kenapa dgn kau? kenapa lemah sgt?
come on, u still got him, right?
apa lg yg tak puas?
theres a thing. i need the old him back.
thats it. and i'll be happy like before.
im sorry if i messed up the whole thing.
and sorry for not being such a perfect person to u.
but please, stay. i need u to fill up the colours of my life

Late, again.

i slept at 4am last night.
been on my bed at 3am.
it took me an hour to fall asleep.
a lot of thoughts. yes, it is.
ive been thinking about him, him and him.
before this senang je nk tdo.
why? cz hati senang. dia pun sentiasa bersama.

but not last night.
everything is changed.
its a BIG difference. goshh. i hate this situation.
i need the old him.
who understands me a lot than what he used to be right now.
i opened arif profile on myspace just now.
and found up this interesting sentences.

It's my fault, I'm sorry
That we had this fight
I apologize, would you hug me tonight?
Here in my bed you're miles away from me
Here in my head you're never close to me
Come on, don't be mad, I told you I need you
Come on, don't be sad, I'm still in love with you

yes, sgt sesuai dgn situation ktorg skrg.
oh god. she screwed our life like a b***h.
and now, it seems like it was all my fault.
hah. unbelievable.
hebat betul plan kau, kan?
and yes, it worked out.
happy lah kau, kan? have it, girl. enjoyed.
apa salahnya sekali sekala kau happy, kan?
tkpe, aku faham. kau mmg desperate sgt.
its ok. hari neh mmg hari kau. esok lusa, siapa yg tahu?
just pray for the best.

hopefully things will be alright.
malam td pk juga, cmne nk kerja if ada masalah?
takut distracted.
i need him. cz he's my spirit booster.
without him, im weak. too weak.

he texted me this morning. around 6++ am?
asked me to call him.
but my credit wasnt enough. and i told him that.
tak lama lepas tu, he called.
by using his lil' sister number.
im pretty shocked, actually.
we talked for about 30mins.
most of the time he'd been silent.
its urm, awkward.
tak semesra dulu. yepp, thats the truth.
and bila ckp je, mst cm nak argue.
oh god. please, i really hate it.
but one thing that im sure of, is about what i feels.
my heartbeat. still pounds up very faster like before.
thank god. perasaan yg sama. tak berubah. alhamdulillah =)

keep on praying, fajin.
pray for the best. dont give up too fast.
ure not that weak, kan?
stand up straight, and told them that u're okay.
prove to them that u're a strong girl.
yes. yes u are ;)

Thank god.

hey people, guess what?
i got a job! haha yess!
opps, its supposed to be alhamdulillah =)
god, i really cant believe it myself.
i just walked in, and ask, "is there any vacancy?"
then one of the staff there called the manager.
and the manager asked me this and that,
then she asked me to fill up the form. i did :)
but suddenly she said, "are u ready for the interview?"
so i said, "urm when is it?"
she said, "right now lah if u're ready"
gulp! omg. what the hell is going on? haha.
i was pretty shocked, actually. sumpah tak ready.
and tak expect pun boleh terus nak interview.
i asked her, "what time is it. oh i mean, now"
she said, "2.20pm"
i replied, "err actually i dh book movie ticket. and the show start at 2.30. so, cmne ek?"
then she said, "hm its ok la. u can come back after the movie ends"
so i said, "oh, haha alright. thanks. i'll come back later"

so we [intan, mira, pika & me] went to watch the movie first.
confession of a shopaholic. yep yep yepp =)
its a great movie. yes, gotta admit that.
*weh korg, bayar kt aku. cte tu best kan? agagga =p
but, my mind is not focused on the movie.
im kinda nervous when im thinking about the interview thingy.
yea, tak ready langsung kott.
and tkde experience apa2 pun before this. aaaaaaaaa!
but they told me to relax. thanks, friends! iloveyou ;)

after the movie ended,
they wanna go to the toilet.
i felt like i wanna p** too, but my nervousness just cant let it.
so i told them that i'll go down to attend the interview first.
as usual, she asked me about my studies,
how long i'll work there, etc etc.
and then she asked me about my pants size.
cz nk order uniform.
i was like, this soon? ahah goshh.
then i followed her to toilet, to try my uniform size.
M does really fits me well =)
then she asked me to read about the terms & conditions.
gila banyak. cerewet btl.
so i'll start working next week, on monday.

i met my friends later, told them all about it. and they're shocked too!
they said, "bertuah gila kau. mmg rezeki kau kot hari neh =)"
haha yea, since i want to work there badly.
i mean the uniform is purple in colour.
wow, my favourite colour tuhh.
haha and the most important thing is, its a bakery shop!
mmg minat sgt dr dulu tau.
suka dgn bread & cakes neh. mcm best sgt.
oh ohh, its Lavender, anyway.
nama kedai tuh ;)

but the worse thing is, xle pakai tudung.
wear a cap instead of scarf.
told my mum just now, dia mcm so-so la.
then she asked my dad, and ayah cm ok.
dia tak tnya lgsg psl tudung thingy tuh.
dia tanya benda lain. haha yeayy!
and and, kena makeup.
omygoshh. gila ke?
yg tu kena pk thousand times.
blusher? lipstick? urgghhh! so not me!
simple2 je dah. xyah pkai compact powder sume.
johnson & johnson baby powder pun dh ckup wangi.
ahahhah =p

mcm tak percaya je nk kerja, kan?
haha am i dreaming right now??
ohhh god