The truth is out!

The naked truth are always better than the best dressed lies.

I finally know the true story.
Sorry for saying all the bad things about u.
I promised to myself that I'll be more careful next time.

Thanks, friends.
I'm glad to have u! :)

Hye blog!

its been ages since my last post.
damn lama gila kot.
just got back from bangi.
settlekan pasal registration sume.
such a tiring day!
tulang kaki pun mcm nak tertanggal je.
haha :)

oh oh! good news!
duit mara dah dapat tadi. yeaayyyyyyyyy!
mcm nak jerit out loud.
sumpah excited mcm tahi.
oh my ipod, here i comee!
hehe supposed to meet uncle arep tadi, but cancel.
mcm malas and rushing plus penat.

and and, kesian juga kt mira.
sbb plan nak teman dia g jusco.
buat pe tah dia nak g sana.
bila tanya malas pula nak jawab. haish.
tunggu duit mara punya pasal, tu yang tak sempat.

hah another good news..
next sem boleh pilih nak satu class ngn housemate or else.
and lecturer juga boleh pilih.
what a great news kan? woot-woott.
kalau boleh memang taknak lecturer account yang sama.
huhu nak lecturer lela. hee!

oh alrite, got to go.
farah gedik nak guna laptop.
heesh sibuk je. kacau betul.
til then~

terlupa pula.
sgt berterima kasih kepada housemates, lela, syu, khai, ieka, mira and not forgotten, nazira.
sebab membantu dalam proses register td.
and lela, thanks sgt2 tumpangkan kte tadi tau. had sooo much fun with u.
saaaayaaannggg korangg!

Raya haji.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha to all muslims!

will go to terengganu aft solat jumaat.
then monday balik johor pula.
will spend about 5days at johor.
its quite long.
but its okay, johor best! agaga =p

alright, got to go.
got loads of things to do.
till then. take care, friends!
i love you! ;)

A crazy night.

my two little sister slept together with me.
oh i mean, dorg menyibuk nak tdo sama. heesh
pstu bukannya tdo awal pun.
pot pet pot pet je manjang.

oh we snap a few pictures together.
take a look :)




now, close ur eyes.





shut ur mouth =p



oh, ini jihan gedik.




last but not least, picture of me! :D
sorry buruk. nak tdo dah pun.



im kind of sleepy that time.
its 3am.
shamin dah lama tdo.
when im about to sleep, jihan disturb me.

jihan ; kak fajin nak tdo dah ke?
me ; haah, nape?
jihan ; ala jgn la tdo dulu. jihan tak boleh tdo la..
me ; asal xle tdo pulak? slalu jihan yg tdo awal. pukul9 je dh tdo.
jihan ; yela, td mse kt kedai makan tu jihan minum nescafe ice, sebab tu la tak ngntuk.
me ; yg jihan g minum air tu buat apa?
jihan ; yela, sebab jihan nak tdo lewat.
me ; eh jap, mana jihan tawu minum nescafe tahan ngantuk?
jihan ; jihan tawu laa, mama bgtwu.
me ; *lol. dah mcm org tua, pandai minum nescafe.
jihan ; jom la tgk tv kt bwh, pstu masak maggi mcm kak fajin buat dgn shamin haritu.
me ; malass. dah tdo tdo. zzzzzzzz

haha mmg dah malas gle nk layan time tu.
bukan apa, mmg dah mengantuk sgt.
patut la dia tahan ngantuk, rupanya nak join ktorg tdo lambat masa haritu.
but sorry jihan, malam tu mmg ngantuk gle.
ahaha bukan rezeki dia. wee

Ikea, here we come!

well, dah lama sgt tak kua 1family.
so we [just six of us, haikal's excluded] went to ikea, to buy some plants for mama's mini garden.
garden? cehh, poyo je.
haha so we fetch farah at imu first then we headed to damansara.

its a crowd there, full with people.
i planned to buy table lamp, so we took a survey.
but mama said, "k.i.v first. next time beli"
urghh! geram je.









oh then we saw this cute little gal. comel, kan?



and we continued walking.

poyo je :D



jihan liked this little chair. how cute, isnt it?



mama n ayah. muka tension je. haha



see? lastly we bought 5 kind of plants.
penat je jalan.
tp beli neh je. haish




dah dah, will be continued....
:)

Making our own assumptions.

went out to mcD with my bestie that day.
but only for a while.
lama gila tak jumpa dia.
damn. miss her loads!
so, we talked about sooooo many things.
im kinda jealous when i heard that she's kinda close with her friends there.
haha pelik je.
but nothing serious pun lah. hee :D

somehow we do talked about our "friendship" thingy.
like i mentioned in my previous post.
im pretty shocked, after heard the latest story. *sighs
so, we think and think over this, and finally, we found the conclusion.
what my bestie thought is the same thing as what my housemates said.
exactly the same.
told my another two besties, a.k.a my ex-neighbour & my ex-classmate, they also said the same thing.
its unbelievable, u know.
but i dont really know whether it is true or not.
just let the time decide.

oh i forgot to snap pictures with her.
haish. selalu je lupa

Friends.

friendship. one word, but BIG meanings.
i just feel like i've been back stabbed by my own friend.
a friend that i used to consider as my bff.
how hurt it was.
u'll never know how it feel.

i feel like im crashed by a hardstone.
breathless. susah nak describe...
kena rasa sendiri mcm mana perasaan tu.
baru je nk happy2.
tp bila dpt tawu about this thing, omg.
im speechless. and startled.
and im wondering, am i such a bad friend to ya?
if i did, give me a strong reason.
enough to make me believe that this is all bcz of my fault.

aku dh byk kali terasa dgn kau..
tp pernah ke aku ckp blkg psl kau?
nak kata aku tak contact kau, aku text kdg2.
tp kau tak pernah reply pun.
call kau juga, sometimes.
tp kdg2 tak berjawab, if ada pun alasan kau, "busy"
nak kata kau contact aku?
hm tak pernah pula.
dah tu, apa sebenarnya yg buat kau ckp mcm2 pasal aku?
sumpah terasa. and masih berbisa lg sekarang ni.
betapa dalamnya luka tu.

aku tanya kawan2 yg lain, "ada tak ****** contact kau?"
and dorang jawab, "ada je, nape?"
owh okay. dah pelik.
tp aku diam, kan?
aku still pk positive.
indeed, i was blaming myself.
aku pk maybe salah aku juga dah lama tak contact kau bla bla bla.
heh how funny it was, kan?

aku kt hostel, tension dgn mcm2 masalah.
and i was hoping that i could turn back the time.
the time when all of us laughing together, how i missed those time.
i always think that among all of my friends, u guys are the best.
still, the best.
but it turns out to be happened like this.
why? just tell me why?!

was it because of me?
sebab aku cm dah lain? or sebab aku cm dh sombong?
heck, that was such a stupid reason.
i hope u guys would understand how much i suffer there.
problems kept on coming to me.
about my housemates, classmates and studies.
i dont actually enjoyed my life there.
cz i still miss spending time with my old friends somehow.
but..

this is the worst feeling i've ever felt.
lebih teruk dari time aku break up dulu.
sbb aku syg kwn2 aku, more than everything.
aku dh anggap korang a part of my family.
tp kenapa korang tak anggap aku mcm tu?
i didnt blame all of u. sorry.
but i knw, one of u is talking behind my back.
why eh?
if aku ada sakitkan hati kau, please ckp terus dgn aku.
takyah cte blkg.
sooner or later, aku dpt tawu gak bnda neh.
and here, it is happening.

im pissed.
nk ikutkan hati nak je aku tanya kau direct.
tp tkpe lah, bak kata arep, "u ignore je bnda neh.. sebok sgt pk psl org lain. just think about yourself first"
thank u, pakcik.
but its easy for u to say.
its hard for me to pretend like nothing happened.
but after spending the whole night thinking of this thing,
i guess u're right.
lagipun i tanak babitkan org yg tak bersalah.
and oh, thanks to my teman setia, [her name cannot be mention here, sorry]
for always supporting me whenever i was down.
sumpah aku sayang gila kau.
and for the rest of my friend as well.

and the most important person is, my mum.
she is the best person on earth!
she woke me up this morning, and give me a big hug.
she said, "dah la, jgn sedih2 lagi. focus dgn exam awk tu dulu.. after this boleh settle balik hal neh"
then she asked me to get ready to go breakfast with the rest of my family.
i love u mum ;)

so i decided to keep on pretending.
tengok la sampai bila boleh bertahan.
i could forgive her, someday.
tu pun if she still consider me as her "friend"
kawan je cukup, tak payah sampai ke tahap bestfriend.
cz u dont know what is the meaning of that word.
tak harapkan lebih pun. cikit pun jadi la.
susah nk cari true friends.
but thank god dalam banyak2 kawan yang aku ada,
aku dah jumpa orang yang layak dpt title "true friends" tu.
thanks sebab pernah jadi kawan aku masa dulu.

Today..

went out with my parents this afternoon.
bought my baju kurung for hari raya at shah alam.
the nearest place, kot.
malas nk g jauh2 since its a fasting month.
at first i dont want to buy any shoes.
planned to buy it by myself.
or maybe, with khai.
because tomorrow we're going to midvalley.

but then, saje masuk Primavera.
just wanna have a look.
huh takde apa yg menarik pun.
but ayah got himself a new pair of shoes there.
then mum said, beli la skali.. kan senang.
and she showed me this wedges.
mcm tak suka, cz its in black.
but beli je [dlm keadaan terpaksa]
uwaaaaaaaaa!!!!

dlm kete, he texted [arep].
a few messages, but then we stopped.
im running out of credits.
eheh :D
but im happy! lalala~

oh oh!
td mama tanya, awk couple dgn faiz eh?
oh damn. terdiam kot time tu.
tnya mama, mana tawu?
she said, farah yg ckp.
tp mama taktau la betul ke tak.
so betul ke?
i was like, errr..
tu dulu la ma.. now dah tak dah.
huhu relax je jwb, kan?
tp dlm hati, macam2!
siap kau farah! urghh

A few changes.

well, this is not the real me, actually.
he made me changed. so drastically.
said that he need time, to make our relationship becomes better.
but heck, he didnt.
he make it even worse.
he lied to me. and hell i believed.
why am i so stupid?
for falling in love with a jerk like him?

arep said that i need to leave him.
so that it would be less hurt for me.
but i still, give him another chances.
why am i being so nice with him?
although he never appreciate it. never, at all.

now, the truth is revealed.
and im really hurt.
its such a heartache.
everything is over now.
i need to make a move.
waiting for him, its like waiting for a rain in a drought.
hopeless, and disappointed.

friends, help me.
help me out from this grief.
i trust u, friends.
only u guys can make me feel better.
and thanks.
thanks 4 always be there by my side.
i love you!

and u, boy..

Please, leave me alone
Get out of my face
I'm tired of love
Feeling so misplaced
Time for you to go
'Cause I know I'm better off on my own, oh
Leave me alone

The Veronicas, Leave Me Alone.

Happy Eid Mubarak .

hey people,
Selamat Berpuasa!
eventhough dah puasa ke-8, but still, not too late right?
haha nway, im back home!
waaa rinduuu!
my blog! aduih. lama sudah tidak update.
masalah besar neh.
dah la for the past 2weeks neh, mcm2 bnda jd.
aihh. mana nak start? aigoo~

last week, almost overnight lua with my housemates.
but seperate ways.
nazira & ika, lepak KL with their scandal.
lela, join me at first, but then jmpa her boyf at masjid jamek.
then she planned nk overnight with her classmates.
me? dgn 3guys. aduih.
lepak pavi, tgk movie til 2am.
dgn siapa? arif, ejat, n cousin ejat.
cane kenal dorg? huh its a long story, i bet u.
but arif, godd.
no words can describe him.
gila caring. tp jahat. suka buli.
ada ke dia kata i bdk2 lg. geram tol.

haha but then, dorg ckp nk overnight o nak balik?
then i said, hantar i balik je la.
dorg risau gak actually, since if i balik, tkde spe kt hostel.
sume org overnight lua.
but mse tu tak pk apa dah. yg penting nk balik.
lalu dpn sri ayu, tgk gate dh kunci.
confirm guard byk tnya nnt. adess.
last2, suruh dorg drop tepi petronas.
situ ada lg 1gate. tp agak scary. wuhh~
then panjat gate. alhamdulillah lepas.

smpi je blik, ejat text.
tnya dh lepas blm.
then i said, im safe. no need to worry :)
few minutes aft that, arep pulak text.
then he called.
ok, borak lama gila kot.
since 3am til subuh.
gila. smpi miss sahur.
oh lupa, its the 1st ramadhan time tu.
huhu and til now, we're still keep in touch with each other :D

the conclusion is, im happy!